Empty

This night, that's kind of feeling, start to struck me again. The feel that's like every single corner of my heart felt so cold, so grey, it's like being clouded by thick mist. Than that's thought crippled my head, what the hell I've been doing for this three month already. My feeling toward her, somehow start to fade, it's just feel like I've been fall to another unrequited love. I really want to get closer to her, but did she felt the same?

Sometime I wonder, what's wrong with me? It's not like I'm desperately need to be loved, but somehow I don't know how to describe it, but here, deep in my heart, something kinda missing, that hollow is so dark, so cold, so quiet. I thought that's maybe somebody out there could share their light, their warmest, so maybe that's part wont be so scary anymore, but I guess I was wrong, maybe that's not what I've been searching for.

Even being surrounded by everyone, I'm start to thinking, did they ever thinking about me, like I'm always think about them, wonder if their life was going on as they planned? But then again, who am I? I'm nobody to no one, I'm just that stupid little boy, who suck almost at everything, who always laugh like no care of the world, who always think everything is gonna be alright, while deep inside I was tremble in fear. It's just feel like no one ever say the truth to me.

Is there anything that I can do? One thing for sure, I love everyone, and right now that's more than enough to keep me pushing forward.