The most emptiness feel someone could felt was not because there is no one close to me, rather despite being surrounded by everyone, It seem no one understands me.

I knew the consequences of the way I acted, far before it came to this point. I live with that mask for so long, until it becomes natural to wore it today. Even though it's nice to look everyone smiling, but deep inside I'm still wishes that someone out there who genuine enough would be brave to take that mask off my face. I don't have the courage to take it off, because I always knew no one would like what it's look inside. Yeah despite being a loner, I'm afraid being lonely and that mask helped me hidden my loneliness intact.