Lately, I break so many promises with my friends. Don't you know, it hurt me so much not able to keep it, but I knew this is what the best for everyone. I don't want everyone think about me so much, I hope they will soon start hate me and forget about me. It best when the time I am finally gone, they'll be fine and continuing their life without even thinking of me.

Sorry if I lately become annoying. This diseases I have been infected for so long, I don't when will it becomes a lot more worse. Yeah, I once tried to never thought about it and just trying enjoyed my life, but unaware of the situations, I met a lot of importance person in my life. I knew I shouldn't done it.

Talking about dreams, yeah it's all true, I do want someday made my own school, but with my sickness getting more worse, I am afraid it would just be a mere dream. It's not like I try to give up, but no matter how much medicine I take, or the doctor I visited, my condition never even better. The cost it take alse getting higher as time passing by. I tried to get a high paying job so I could heal myself, but I starting to think it useless.

So please, dear my lovely friend, thank you for being with me so far, but I think you should start to forget about me, because I think you guys would meet someone who a lot better than me anyway, if one of this day I'm gone, please don't bother to cry.