It's been quite a journey, I spend almost 5 years at college. There is sweat and tears thats come along. Sometime I wondering why it's can be so hard. In the last semester without any agenda outside studying, I'm barely managed got a better score, but still it's not ended up as I planned. Then again my mission to get a 3.0 GPA, bound to be failed. Now I'm ended up reflecting to myself of what I've been doing this past 5 year. It's looked so fun at the beginning, how I still managed to get a good score, yeah back then I never really active at any organization or event. Then I became an activist at an organization, from there, there is a way of downhill on my academic score. But that's not an excuses of what happened to me now, it's just me that's incompetent to catch up with everything, cos you know there is a lot of person, that giving a real contribution to this organization and they still able to be a real deal at their academic. Right now, I cannot imagined what kind of dream I'm still able managed to reach, I'm always thinking to just get a settled job at a low profile company, and helping that company to growth, seem realistic to me right now. I never regret became an activist, all the thing that I regret is why I can't do it better. I can see where the hell I'm wrong, I'm lacked of time management, lacked of self discipline, lacked of self motivation, and lacked of the will to fight. If only time can back to where I began, I will be more discipline, more fighting and less nagging about my own weaknesses.
Yup that's some reflections of my journey in the college life, you can tell what kind of person I'm, however despite that, I'm still glad that I got a lot of friend that I cared for and they care for me to, It was the best gift God ever give in my university life. I'm still not giving up on my dream to become a great support for everyone that I love, I won't quit to make my parents proud even tough right now I'm bound to make them disappointed again. After all the end of my time at university is not the end line of my life, it's just like a phase that going in this world system, I'm still can start over again. At least I know where I was wrong, I learned so much thing that I never imagined too, as long as I believe and work even more harder, I believe that's nothing that I cannot achieve. Never asked what anyone can give to you, but asked what you can do to anyone in need...
